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Wow...So much has happened since I've last been on here. I've started cutting, or rather scratching into my arms with saftey pins, my legs have cuts on them, knifes and razors. My mom somehow found out though, so now I have a shrink, who thinks I suffer from insomnia, schizophrenia, multiple personalities (Maybe borderline), and dissociative disorder. Gah....fuck this life of mine. I despise it. I think the only reason I'm still walking on this plane is because of Mi amor. I'm also going through major fits of depression and manic stages, so it's possible I have Bipolar as well. This week at school my friend and I were called Lesbian Dykes....hmmm....last time I checked I was Bi. Not a lesbian. Fuck those two preppy bitches as well. My scanner broke, and I took some beautiful photos of various things around here, some from a trip to the mountains, some from homecoming, some from random objects, some of my friends and family. I'm going to have to use the one at my dad's. Oh well, such is life. I've had some rather unpleasent run ins lately, let's not get into those. And my ex-boyfriend wants to go out with me again. He doesn't understand....I love the one I'm with now...Gah...I should wrap this up...I'm starting to blabber on about nothing....Farewell.
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Lacy-Mouse,
I do sincerely thank you, yet again. Either you've researched Aspergers/Autism, or you really do know something about what's going on. I'm guessing the latter. Your words actually have meaning to me, and I must say, it is rare for me to find someone who understands nowadays. Hm, I might just take your advice and not think of it as a confrontation, but more of a....call for help, I suppose. I will most definately look into your suggestions, and would appreciate you kind suggestions.
-Thank you,
Hannah
Autism is actually vaguely related to schizophrenia. They share a lot of the same symptoms, although the causes are different. I am so grateful for Australia's health system, although it is currently in crisis!, because anybody can use the public hospital. You would be able to get checked out and diagnosed for free!!
Please, dear God, talk to someone who can help. Mates are great moral support but often aren't in a position to actually provide what you need. Talk to your Mum about what you are feeling. If she already has an autistic child, she may understand more than you think.
(I talk like this because I grew up with a schizophrenic mother who was in and out of hospital, leaving me with the three younger kids, from the time I was 10 or 12...Dad helped but he also had to work...and my youngest is autistic. I do understand how hard it is to talk to anybody about mental health issues.)
You have made what is probably the hardest decision, and that is to recognise that things aren't 'right', that there is a serious problem. If you can't talk to Mum face-to-face, write it down. You have a wonderful way with words, looking at your poetry. Put it down in a way you are comfortable with, then leave it for her, making it very clear it is autobiographical.
Here is a for sharing, a for you and good wishes for your future
Wow...thank you very much for this comment, it's gotten me thinking about confronting my mom about this. Hmm, actually, my brother has a form of autism, Asperger Syndrome to be exact. So I guess she would know a little, though we only just recently found out about my brother. Umm, just, wow...I really can't think of what else to say, just, thank you for your kind words.
The difference between Asperger's and Autistic Spectrum Disorder is basically that they don't have the same speech and language difficulties, it's more social/unwritten rules they don't get!
My only suggestion here, would be not to think of it as 'confrontation'. You have a problem and you need help. You can't do it on your own. You need her help to get over this hurdle. You are 'only' 15 (I know you feel old, but you're not really...) and you have a whole lifetime ahead of you. When you get this diagnosed and put some guidelines in to deal with it, whether they be chemical, behavioural or whatever, you can then look forward to the rest of your life.
Smile...it can make you feel better than you think!! Sometimes...
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"Need a reason to join? We have nine!"
(get it? Like there are nine in the fellowship... Yeah)
I do sincerely thank you, yet again. Either you've researched Aspergers/Autism, or you really do know something about what's going on. I'm guessing the latter. Your words actually have meaning to me, and I must say, it is rare for me to find someone who understands nowadays. Hm, I might just take your advice and not think of it as a confrontation, but more of a....call for help, I suppose. I will most definately look into your suggestions, and would appreciate you kind suggestions.
-Thank you,
Hannah
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<33 Hannah Kay <33
Please, dear God, talk to someone who can help. Mates are great moral support but often aren't in a position to actually provide what you need. Talk to your Mum about what you are feeling. If she already has an autistic child, she may understand more than you think.
(I talk like this because I grew up with a schizophrenic mother who was in and out of hospital, leaving me with the three younger kids, from the time I was 10 or 12...Dad helped but he also had to work...and my youngest is autistic. I do understand how hard it is to talk to anybody about mental health issues.)
You have made what is probably the hardest decision, and that is to recognise that things aren't 'right', that there is a serious problem. If you can't talk to Mum face-to-face, write it down. You have a wonderful way with words, looking at your poetry. Put it down in a way you are comfortable with, then leave it for her, making it very clear it is autobiographical.
Here is a
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<33 Hannah Kay <33
My only suggestion here, would be not to think of it as 'confrontation'. You have a problem and you need help. You can't do it on your own. You need her help to get over this hurdle. You are 'only' 15 (I know you feel old, but you're not really...) and you have a whole lifetime ahead of you. When you get this diagnosed and put some guidelines in to deal with it, whether they be chemical, behavioural or whatever, you can then look forward to the rest of your life.
Smile...it can make you feel better than you think!! Sometimes...
You're welcome to the words...
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